Behind My Fake Smile

Everyone thinks I’m happy. Because I smile. I laugh. I joke around. But no one knows it’s fake.

Behind my smile, I’m just tired. Tired of being strong. Tired of pretending. I smile so no one asks me “what happened?” I don’t want to explain it again and again. Because no one really listens. Not fully.

I feel lonely most of the time. Even when I sit with friends. Even when people call me “funny” or “happy,” inside I feel empty. Like I’m in a crowded place but still feel alone.

And the worst part? Friends who say, “I’m always here for you,” but they’re not. They turn into strangers. They talk behind my back. Two faces. One for me, and one when I’m not there. I trusted them. But they were just liars. They made me believe in friendship and broke it like it was nothing.

Now I don’t trust easily. I stay quiet. I keep things in. Because if I say how I feel, they say “you’re being dramatic.” So, I stopped. But sometimes, I just want someone to ask, “are you really, okay?” and mean it.

So yeah... maybe I’m smiling. But that doesn’t mean I’m fine.


It’s just easier to fake it.

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